no you are not mistaken..this IS a new post

Oh hey! long time no talk. haha. Sorry about the delay...but in my defense i really dont like to blog about how sucky i feel...or just be depressing..sooo haha. Idk the last few weeks havent given me much to be happy about. But that is life..its not all roses..so ill get over it.. :)
Well ill be over it by next friday...see my good friend Juelaine and I are throwing ourselves a pitty party next thursday..we are just going to talk about all the things that SUCK right now..and just complain...and eat crappy food and watch corny movies...then on friday we are going to the gym and getting in a hardcore workout and "getting over it"
fun huh??
So did anyone notice how AMAZING the weather was yesterday???? It was warm...had slight moisture (i hatteeee the word moist)..in the air..and a slight cool breeze?? eh?? beach weather??? i think so. I had this CRAZY flash back of walking down the street in some california beach town with my soccer team trying to find some where to eat. Uhhh it felt SO real.
I miss soccer like nobodys business..
Like the other day I drove by some of the places i use to practice with down town..i could see myself running across the street early on a saturday morning...to tell my teammates about the latest boy..or whatever..and Ryan putting up with listening to all our crap..
I remember the day I was asked to be a captain on down town...i was the first one to practice and i had just had my hair cut the day before and it was too short to be put in a ponytail..
I remember we had a tree we had named and we had to run to it a billion times randomly during practice
I drove by McDonalds that we use to meet at for a soccer carpool durning my tabagator days..
After all this remembering..i could feel the grass under me as i slidtackled a girl who had gotten pass one of my defenders and i had hussled back to get the ball..it was all so satisfying.
I havent found anything to patch the whole in my heart soccer left....its the closest thing ive had to a heart wrenching break up...